Jase1        Posted at 2023-11-16 17:40:49(53Wks ago) Report Permalink URL | ||
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| EliteZukieNr1Posted at 2023-11-16 18:02:43(53Wks ago) Report Permalink URL | ||
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| EliteZukieNr1Posted at 2023-11-16 19:22:38(53Wks ago) Report Permalink URL | ||
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| FoxbasePosted at 2023-11-17 19:56:04(53Wks ago) Report Permalink URL | ||
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| It just feels, sometimes, like there's a tree growing out of my head that connects to everything... When I was younger, it was just flashes and feelings...all about me, me, me...getting a little step ahead by seeing or hearing or feeling something extra... Now I'm an old man...I'm almost as much them and there as I am me... It feels like there is a path, a road I need to walk... ...but... ...do you know when you're looking at the code, and you know something extra is going on... ...there's *something*...you can't see it or prove or articulate...but you know it's there... ...a lot of things are funny to me these days...but I also feel love and pride... ...I mean, at the whole thing... | |
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| EliteZukieNr1Posted at 2023-11-17 20:12:01(53Wks ago) Report Permalink URL | ||
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| EliteZukieNr1Posted at 2023-11-17 20:16:22(53Wks ago) Report Permalink URL | ||
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| FoxbasePosted at 2023-11-17 20:41:54(53Wks ago) Report Permalink URL | ||
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| Hahahahahhahaha! The bathroom has always been safe for me, if you like... Every sight and sound has the potential to overload... Fingers on wool would have me living and reliving entire lifetimes... My bathroom, on the other hand, is smooth and clinical and quiet and clean... My precautions don't get me off the hook entirely... I was taking a dump just the other day... My mind slipped to the sounds outside...the people...the cars... ...the sound of spoons against coffee cups in the place just down the road... ...the lives...the buildings...the history...the thoughts and dreams and drama... ...after a few moments I was floating above it all, just watching and feeling and understanding... ...higher...for a few brief moments, I don't know...it felt like I'd connected...y'know? Anyway...the whole thing was a fucking disaster, I had to get in the shower after and just hosed my arsehole out. | |
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| FoxbasePosted at 2023-11-17 21:26:08(53Wks ago) Report Permalink URL | ||
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| My neighbour had a dog...super smart...he and I became close friends... There were times,me in my bed, thinking, feeling...dark, cold, room when I needed some spark of love to hold on to, as I pushed and pushed and pushed...he was and is still that source. The dog was smarter than the neighbours, started to act up and was gotten rid of. Not convenient, you see. They replaced him almost immediately with a younger chap...left alone for long periods...barks and crys... Although conversation is limited, I found a way to...well, make him feel better... ...flood his mind with love and strokes...and...importantly, the smell of his mother and the feel of her against him...he basically gets high and falls asleep... It's not real, of course... So does that make me a bad person? | |
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| FoxbasePosted at 2023-11-17 22:44:52(53Wks ago) Report Permalink URL | ||
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| A surprising number of folk have a trick... Look deep into your eyes, to read you...to read the truth of you... What are they seeing? Well - they are seeing more... I was pretty young when I realised I could make people see what I wanted *if* they played their trick on me... I was a much older man when I realised the rest... Unlike the books and movies would have you believe...we are mostly far too concerned with just living to think about much else. Am I normal, am I liked or loved...if I buy that jacket, will she like me more... We don't know what anyone else is feeling or experiencing...not really...it's all a social game... It's only much later, once a social framework has been established...that...well...people, my people...realise. It's never pretty...it will be...it could be... ...all I ask is that you are kind... | |
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| FoxbasePosted at 2023-11-17 23:38:55(53Wks ago) Report Permalink URL | ||
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| Where and why? I honestly don't know... My family are Romani - their legends and stories are...a touch different... If we look beyond the mainstream...there are a lot of deeply respected beliefs that are ignored, at best... As far as my lot are concerned - there was a deal...a long, long time ago...with one of the older ones... We help him and his...he helps us...with the gift of sight... That's what the legends say...for me, it feels like there is something more... ...knowledge, beyond... ...the capacity...beyond... Whatever that means... | |
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| FoxbasePosted at 2023-11-18 00:24:19(53Wks ago) Report Permalink URL | ||
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| One other thing I remember - which may or may not be interesting... It wasn't a case of the "old one" waving his hand and then all gyps can see... It was... The families were asked...and a "procedure" was done on volunteers... It wasn't so much a miracle...more so, a visit to the dentist... Something else I should say... Whilst the "gypsy fortune teller" is now hackneyed and fun...it's something that the people still take very seriously...*they* think that there's something going on...by all means, there are chancers and grifters...but at the core, it's a gift that is given and earned...not fun and games. | |
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| FoxbasePosted at 2023-11-18 02:16:37(53Wks ago) Report Permalink URL | ||
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| Did I ever tell you about the time I was plunged into hell? I was just randomly dropped off there by my guide...the voice... I don't know if hyper-addictive is a concept...but that's hell... ...an entire reality created to give absolute pleasure, at all times... ...and the choice to feel, enjoy, indulge...forever... ...but your soul will never grow... It took me months to even realise there was a problem... I clawed my way up out of the toilet bowl and every single inch forward compounded my fury... ...when I got to heaven I exploded in brilliant flame...I was so angry... ...I woke up in bed and was left alone for a long while... ...I started to take and drink everything I could to try to feel just a piece of what I had... ...years flew by, one time I overdid it, it was serious...very serious... ...I woke up neatly and lovingly place in bed... ..."are you okay", she said...and I exploded again... ...I do get it, I do understand the lesson... ...but I do keep my angel at an arms length now... ...she loves me...and I...do love her... ...growth goes at its own speed... | |
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| FoxbasePosted at 2023-11-18 03:45:54(53Wks ago) Report Permalink URL | ||
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| Some nights, I find myself hammering at a brass door, in my own head... A control room, of sorts...very Jules Verne... A chair - not just *a* chair...but *the* chair, it feels... Is this for me? I ask... ...or an evolution of me? ...or am I just keeping everything warmed up? YES - her voice, the response... | |
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| FoxbasePosted at 2023-11-18 03:53:51(53Wks ago) Report Permalink URL | ||
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| By rights, I should rage at some meta-gag being played on us all... ...but, there is no gag...I think... ...only perspective... ...and my lack... | |
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| EliteZukieNr1Posted at 2023-11-18 04:06:26(53Wks ago) Report Permalink URL | ||
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| EliteZukieNr1Posted at 2023-11-18 04:06:42(53Wks ago) Report Permalink URL | ||
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| EliteZukieNr1Posted at 2023-11-18 04:07:00(53Wks ago) Report Permalink URL | ||
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| FoxbasePosted at 2023-11-18 06:15:20(53Wks ago) Report Permalink URL | ||
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| I would like to thank Elite for the points - and for always breaking my intensity with a joke :-) That reminds me of the time I washed up on a beach in a sack! Also - thanks Wyld, for loving order in numbers... XX | |
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| FoxbasePosted at 2023-11-18 06:45:48(53Wks ago) Report Permalink URL | ||
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| So anyway, the sack... I didn't expect I would have to *do* anything... I was good with numbers, you see...and the wind... Do you know when the wind changes and you kinda know what's on its mind? You...so...you have all the people talking like they know and can order all the sea and the air around... Not one of them just asks... This isn't why I had a sack on my head...I'm just saying... | |
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| FoxbasePosted at 2023-11-18 06:58:11(53Wks ago) Report Permalink URL | ||
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| Look - before I get started...I just wanna say I come from a haunted village... The haunting happened after I left, it did... ...just wanted to be straight... | |
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| FoxbasePosted at 2023-11-18 07:51:13(53Wks ago) Report Permalink URL | ||
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| Whenever I try to move between places, I get the shits... ...also, my friends throw up... ...and everything dies... Why can't I turn up cool... Why the fuck EVERY SINGLE TIME everyone is shitting themselves and dying!? | |
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| EliteZukieNr1Posted at 2023-11-18 17:21:26(53Wks ago) Report Permalink URL | ||
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| wyldchyldPosted at 2023-11-19 03:37:51(53Wks ago) Report Permalink URL | ||
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| EliteZukieNr1Posted at 2023-11-19 03:49:24(53Wks ago) Report Permalink URL | ||
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